Well.....today is the first day I am getting bummed out. I've had a positive attititude through this whole process but today I have had it.....
I was at the Clinic all day yesterday seeing multiple docs and being poked and prodded.... When I left, the consensus was to do surgery on Thursday. I was stoked that we finally made a decision and had a plan. Well, the doc got my lab results that I had done earlier in the day (by the way, the Clinic never received the lab results from UCSF - WTF??????.) He called me at 9:30 PM and had some bad news. My tumor markers had risen significantly since my initial surgery. That means that the cancer has spread. He recommended that we postpone surgery until we do more tests and another CT Scan.
Sooooooo tomorrow, it's back to the Clinic for more tests and CT Scans. Depending on the results, it's either surgery on Thursday or postpone surgery and begin chemotherapy.
It would be nice if a doctor made a f"ing decision!!!!!!! maybe this and maybe that and depending on this and blah blah blah.... If I had done something 6 weeks ago - right after my initial surgery, I would be almost recovered from another surgery or almost complete with chemotherapy.....
Tomorrow, I'm going to not be such a good patient and press someone to DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!! I am ready for fucking surgery already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let's just DO IT and if turns out that it spread somewhere else, then let's hit it with chemo....
At this point, I'm looking at late Jan or Feb before I can start working again - that is, IF I get a job asap....... Maybe if Obama gets elected, he will take care of me.....(I'm totally kidding by the way....)
Let's hope for good news and a plan of action tomorrow...
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